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Blessed Phobias

Genesis 50:20 “As for you, you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good, to bring it about that many people should be kept alive, as they are today.” In another inner healing exercise the other day, my ministers had seen a room of my life that my family occupied in somewhat cramped quarters. They asked me to close my eyes and see what God might want to speak to me about what this room represents. I saw this lizard with a turtle shell and a long brontosaurus neck. We prayed about it and realized it had something to do with Elaine as she has a phobia of lizards. One time at the Iguazu falls, we embarked on a sundown hike, which is supposed to be the most stunning way to experience the largest waterfall in the world. Elaine shrieked as she saw a lizard cross our path. I tried and tried, but nothing could convince her to continue on. After what seemed like an eternity of fruitless negotiations, we turned back to the hotel. As a goal-oriented person, I often get frustrated when something gets in the way of desired outcomes. I wouldn’t quite call it a phobia, but Elaine’s aversion to driving has been one cause of friction in our relationship. When I have my day planned in 30m increments, a last-minute request to drive her somewhere often drives me nuts. Well after my inner healing ministers walked me through some exercises the other day, I closed my eyes again and saw a catapult throwing fireballs at the lizard. One of them hit its shell and killed the lizard. Then I had a flashback of playing Super Mario Brothers (the video game from my youth). The fireball popped up and as it dropped back it fell on the remaining shell and sent it skidding to clear the path of all other obstacles. This morning Elaine asked if I could drive her to pick up a hamster cage. I thought to myself “are you friggin’ kidding me?!” and answered with something only slightly nicer. But when I went to the bathroom I took a deep breath, closed my eyes, and saw the lizard shell clearing the way and bringing me victory for the rest of my day. Sometimes God gives you obvious blessings. But just as often what seem like curses can clear the way for further favor. Lord I love you so much. Thank you for blessing me with the most beautiful woman in the world to be my wife. She is absolutely perfect, and she brings me closer to perfection with each passing day. In Jesus’ name, Amen.


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