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Psalm 84:10 “Better is one day in your courts than a thousand elsewhere.” Those of you who have heard my testimony will know that I used to have a drug problem. For about ten years of my life, I was constantly high. I was high when I went to class. I was high when I went to church. I was high when I took my SATs. Several friends have died of overdose, and I’m pretty sure I teetered on the edge myself. But the feeling I get when Spirit touches me blows away any substance induced high that I’ve ever felt. As I read Psalm 84 this morning I felt God reminding me that the ecstasy of meeting him far surpasses anything this world can offer. It’s better than the most delicious meal. It’s better than the purest cocaine. It’s better than the most passionate sex. One day in his courts is better than a thousand elsewhere. I’ve seen addicts sell their most treasured possessions and steal from their family to get that next high. God calls us to a similar willingness to sacrifice everything for him. But unlike other addictions, a hit of the holy spirit leads me to encounter MORE, not less abundance in work and relationships. More of God makes me a more patient husband and a more successful investor. If you could experience the high of heroine, and become a better, more blessed person in the meantime, would you not take that trade all day long? God is the best thing out there. How can I not pursue him with everything? How can I not tell everyone about this amazing thing called Jesus? Lord, thank you for you. I’m overwhelemed by the gift of relationship. Please help me to grow more in my desire. More of you Lord… In your son’s name, Amen.

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