Ephesians 4:1 “I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received.”
For most of my adult life I’ve struggled with the concept of my calling. I remember three years out of University I had three different jobs in three different industries (tech, music & finance). I got really frustrated with myself and cried out to God. I journaled a lot. I read “What Should I Do With My Life?” by Po Bronson.
Well I managed to stay in derivatives for four years, then shifted to the commodities industry for 6 years, before switching again to venture capital where I’ve been working for about 8 years. With each transition I get more upset with myself for lacking the focus and resolve that it takes to gain mastery in one subject area.
Well two weeks ago I started auditing a class at Fuller Theological Seminary taught by Tod Bolsinger, who wrote “Canoeing The Mountains” as well as our first reading assignment for the class, an article entitled “Formed, Not Found.”
“In a rapidly changing world, it is the question [of calling] now being asked repeatedly throughout life. It can be as ordinary as a morning spent searching help wanted ads or as aching as a prayer: “Lord what am I to do?” The wish that seems promised in the biblical stories is that it will be a one-time, hopefully once-for-all announcement like a proposal for marriage. But more like marriage itself, one’s calling in life is not so much found as formed. Or to say it even more clearly, our vocation is not truly found until we are fit for it.”
In the last few weeks, I’ve been gaining great insight about my calling through scripture, Amasia’s new Senior Advisor Dave Gibbons, and our reading assignments at Fuller. I don’t claim to know everything just yet, but one thing I do know for certain is that God has revealed parts of the picture to me at exactly the right time. When I was frustrated due to a lack of clarity, the root cause was really my own lack of preparedness. God is never late. He is always on time.
Lord, thank you for your reminder today. Thank you that you have placed me exactly where I need to be right now. I look forward to the goodness you have in store. In your son’s name, Amen.