Proverbs 15:4 “Gentle words bring life and health; a deceitful tongue crushes the spirit.”
Last night I went through my second inner healing session. Again it was really intense, really long, and really liberating. (I wrote about the first session here.) We spent a lot of time on breaking word curses, and I noticed that for me, the most powerful of those were words that I had spoken over myself. When I was 10 years old, I had suicidal thoughts because I felt excluded from a society that didn’t want to accept me as a minority. Unaccepted, disrespected and repulsive were all words that came to mind in characterizing my self-image. I realized that I had spoken lies over myself: that my life was not worth living, and that I was not worth loving. It’s been over thirty years since then, and though in my head I know those things aren’t true, I found myself weeping as I remembered that time in my life. We broke those lies off, and asked God what truth he has in their place for me. “Your life is worth living, and your soul is worth loving… loving so much that I’d even come die for you.” Words are powerful. We must use them carefully. Dear God, there are so many times in my life when I’ve misused words, on others and on myself. I repent for not taking words seriously enough and I thank you for loving me just the way I am. In your son’s name, Amen.